I Can Barely Breathe/Manchester Orchestra.
Hi guys.
Or hi, no one.
It’s cold.
The leaves are gone.
Free candy has been collected.
October is over.
Hello, November.
Thanksgiving is coming up soon.
Soon after it will be Christmas.
There’s no point to this,
but I guess there’s a point to everything so there is a point to this.
Okay, bye.
-Your Monster.
And I’m not upset it’s not.
Okay, I am.
But, I’m not like, “WAHHHHHHHHH.”
Ya know?
I don’t know.
This is pointless.
I’ve been posting a lot of pictures lately,
sorry about that.
I don’t know, I get bored.
But the one from that fall day, like two or three posts down,
I really like those.
Alright bye.
my thoughts on everyone i’ve lost.
my thoughts on sappy love that i can’t have.
pretty wonderful what you can do with these things, no?
I’ve had mine so long.
It’s just part of my life now.
The words that are contained in such a simple website are jaw dropping.
Was I like that at one point?
Did I think that at one point?
It’s amazing to see how much things change,
and how some things never do.
I love that.
sorry, i don’t have much to say, and i’ve really just been taking my crap pictures while i’m bored. fall is so pretty though. so they’re not ugly, they’re just not good.
:’D
i’ve eaten four apples today.
this was number one.
death has never looked so good.
ruined my whole life.
that’s a false statement.
three weeks made my life wonderful.
but only for a short amount of time.
after those three weeks,
i was a mess,
and still am.
can’t seem to pull myself out of it.
i hate this.
i hate this.
i hate this.
there’s snow on those leaves that only started falling a week or two ago.
see?
i love this so much. you have no idea.
fifteen minutes later, those footprints were gone.
now, i know. i lack skill in the photography department. but i take pictures for fun, so whatever.
For the first time in so long,
I’m actually pretty happy.
I can think about Anthony without nearly crying,
and I can talk about him without getting emotional.
And I’ve been talking about him a lot lately.
Six months, and the relationship is finally closed to me.
Talking about it makes it better though.
Makes it seem real.
It happened.
I miss him tons,
but I’ll live.
And I’ll move on.
I stayed after school today with some friends.
That was fun.
It’s nice to go out and do things with others rather than come home,
and sit on my ass all day and night.
I don’t know.
It’s just not appealing anymore.
It snowed yesterday.
Mid-October and it snowed.
I usually hate cold weather and snow, but I loved it.
It was wonderful.
What else?
Oh I don’t really know.
I’m so like, I don’t know.
OH!
Ellen Hopkins’ new book, Tricks.
Amazing.
Love it<3
You should most definitely read all her books if you haven’t already.
She’s my favorite author.
That’s all.
Love,
-your monster.
My computer freaked out and didn’t work well,
so I was only on it for short times each day.
So last night, I rebooted it,
lost all my programs,
all my files,
[which i thankfully had backed up, minus all my new stuff that didn't back up]
and all my setting.
So that sucks.
On top of that,
my fonts are all fucked up.
Seriously, they’re too light and it’s weird and annoying.
It lags now, scrolling down is a pain in the ass.
It just sucks.
Anyway, I should be back now.
Back to wordpress, being on the computer daily,
all that jazz.
Unless I get grounded for not going to school today.
It was cold, I didn’t want to wake up. |’:
Well, I’m off to fix Patty up some more.
[the computer...]
Peace out,
-your monster.
I don’t really know what I mean by that,
because all I do is feel.
I’m hurt.
I’m lonely.
But that’s it.
I’m constantly only feeling those two emotions.
And it scares me.
I need therapy.
There’s something wrong with me, and it’s becoming more apparent everyday.
I can’t even explain it, or go into details.
Maybe some other time.
I’m not feeling up to it now.
-your monster.
