alright. it’s now 2:17 in the morning. i’m bored out of my mind, but i’m not tired. so sleeping isn’t an option yet. well i guess it is. but i feel so incomplete. like i have to fulfill something before i go to sleep. i’m not sure what, or why. but i feel so empty. like i’m forgetting to do something, or i’m missing something important.
but i’m not forgetting anything and i’m not missing anything either.
weird.

so anyway, i guess i can just settle down, watch house hunters for the next hour and a half [HGtv stops airing at 4 in the morning]
so eh. alright.
pretty pointless.
just wanted to say good morning for all you early birds, or nocturnal people like me.

oh. that leads me somewhere. the word nocturnal. yeah. odd. but anyway,
is it weird for me to have so much more energy at night then in the morning/afternoon? i mean i wake up at 11. okay i wake up around 1 sometimes. the earliest 10. the latest 3:30. :D
but i never have energy to really do anything but sit around till night. i mean, i find i want to clean when it’s late, but not in the afternoon. i want to go for a really long walk [of course i can't. cause it's dark] i want to go places, see people, all starting around 10. and it lasts until i fall asleep around 3:30-4 o’clock in the morning. i don’t get it.
i mean, am i the only one? or is it perfectly normal for a teenager like myself? i mean, yeah teens have been known to sleep late and stay up later. but have more energy at night? my friends are like “alright. i’m going to bed” at like 11. and i’m just getting on line to check all my stuff and just roam until i find something of interest [like sit on wordpress and talk to you guys]
hm. maybe it is just me. and frankly, i don’t mind.

now i’m going to watch house hunters in the peace and enjoy the sound of crickets and the sound of the trucks on the highway. it really is nice here at night. and during the day. it’s like a peace resort. very tranquil. you know? so why is it that i want to get out of here and move so far away? am i sick of it here? or am i just home sick?
i mean if we did move, i wouldn’t miss anyone except my one true friend. and of course the house i’ve spent more then half my life in. and the views. and the place i grew up. but am i willing to trade that all for family?

hm. well goodnight creatures.
-your confused, not tired, underactive nightbird, monster.
[to long?]