your monster;

most people in this blog aren’t referred to by their real name,
though a handful of them are.
the others have the same first letter as their real name,
and others have names completely different than their own.
needless to say, none of that matters,
because you don’t know me, and you don’t know them.
so just get to know them by what’s written below.

the important people in the blog; or the ones being mentioned often these days.
these are the people who will be referred to often. these are the people who i interact with most, and have the most to talk about. these are the people who you need to get to know, or else nothing will make sense.

catie: my best friend since forever. we’ve known each other since we were wee tiny babies.
5.4.09- mmm, time to get more in depth. kind of. 
she’s practically family, just without the ties in blood, genes, and dna.
she is the definition of my bestie. always, and forever:D
kate: one of the greatest people i’ve ever met. we met last year. i doubted we’d still be friends this year. but we are. and we’re hella close. she gets me. i love it. (:
12.22.08- did i say hella close before? yeah, i still mean it. it just seems that we get closer everyday. seriously, we can tell each other anything without judgment. and we can talk for hours about stupid shit. she’s definitely one of my best friends.
jamie: we met two years ago in music class. we weren’t close but we talked. came back the next year for school, found she was in a lot of my classes. and now well, we’re great friends.
3.23.09- i don’t think we’re all that close. but, whatever. we’re great friends. but it’s like the allie thing, we’re drifting.
mom: 12.22.08- why it’s taken me so long to add the actual family, i don’t know. she’s my mom. my real birth mother. pretty self explanatory.
chuck: 12.22.08- my step father. kind of. they’re not married. but they’ve been together for a long time. since we moved up here when i was seven. yeah. he’s more like an older brother, but hey, he’s cool. but he can be an ass.
emma: 12.22.08- my little sister. we’re seven years apart. we get along, but we fight. a lot. we share a room, which sucks! but, whatever. at least i don’t have to be alone.
sarah: 12.22.08- she’s actually not my age. more like 20 years older then me. (:
she’s catie’s mom. she’s important in my life. she’s like my second mom. so, i felt bad leaving her out.
robert: 12.22.08- this is catie’s dad. once again, important person in my life. like a second dad. second after my step dad. sad that my actual dad is third, but whatever. (:
jay: 5.5.09- a friend of mine, a friend of anthony’s.
a funny kid.
5.16.09- a good friend. a really good friend.

the not so important people in the blog.
these are the people who won’t be mentioned much. these are the people who might be mentioned every once in a while, or still kind of hold a place in my heart mind. you should know who they are, because they may come up every once in a while.
gary: a guy who’s older then i am, but insanely gorgeous. he’s really nice and well. we’re friends i guess.
11.6.08- i am very fond of this fine fellow. he makes me happier then most people do. even though most of my friends don’t like him, i really do. i think about him to much and talk about him to much. he’s amazing. <3
12.22.08- we’re actually pretty close now. close enough to talk to each other about stuff that acquaintances could not. i’m not crazy about him anymore. but he’s still pretty amazing.
1.13.09- he’s douche bag. seriously, he doesn’t care for me at all. so, there fore, i do not care for him. he’s nothing but another person to me now. and frankly, i’m quite happy about that.
allen [previously known as andy, for like a post.]: 12.17.08- the new guy that’s coming into my life. we’ve talked before because he’s friends with abby. i would say we’re friends. cause we are. i like him. (:
1.1.09- coughcough. you knew it was coming didn’t you? i don’t like him anymore. not anything more then a friend. why? i don’t know. i didn’t give up because of his galpal, cause i think they’re breaking up soon anyway. i don’t like him because,
well, i just don’t. this is why i need to sit down and sit to someone for like a week straight before saying i like them.
^this could be why i don’t like him anymore.^ :D
1.13.09- he’s nothing but a friend that won’t be mentioned much anymore.
1.26.08- he bugs the shit out of me. seriously, i wouldn’t even call us friends.
3.10.09- i lied. we’re friends; who make fun of each other and hit each other all the time. haha, uhm yeah. he can get really annoying though.
4.13.09- hahaha, nahh. i love allen. he’s such a doof. :D
rob: 1.12.09- we met at the mall a few days back. he’s slightly what i would consider obsessed with me. i have no idea why. i can’t be with him frankly because i don’t want to hurt him. he’s too nice for that.
1.13.09- obsessed is the wrong word to use. i guess i didn’t realize he actually did [does?] like me somewhat of a lot. too bad we’re just friends.
1.26.09- aw, this poor kid "can’t stop thinking about me". i don’t like to see him getting all crazy about me, though it is nice to get complimented every day. (:
we’re still friends though.
2.19.09- he got over me relatively fast. guess i can’t really blame him. no more compliments. he’s hooking up with some chick in my school, and she gives me dirty looks every time she seems me. LAWL! :D
3.10.09- his chick got a boyfriend[i think]. i don’t know how this deals with me, but i have the feeling that it will somehow end up with me getting involved. especially since greg must have told him that i would like to still be friends with him.
3.14.09- sigh. he keeps pulling me back to him. my mind is lingering to him often and i don’t know why. so, let’s see where this time get’s me.
5.1.09- hahhaa, screw him. he’s been a waste of time.
ashley: she’s my cousin. lives like a million miles away [okay. i exaggerate.] i can only give a time estimate of 16 hours. d:
she may possibly be the most important person in my life [or one of them]. we don’t talk often and when we do it’s through myspace messages. i miss her year round except when we go to visit her, my other cousin, and my aunt and then rest of them in the summer. anyway. i love this chick. she’s the best.
3.10.09- she’s not big in the blog, but she will be soon enough. i spend the whole summer at her house, so get to know her now(:
5.14.09- still massively important in my life, and in the summer.
but she isn’t mentioned often so she isn’t an "important person to know." just a person to know. you know?
greg: 12.22.08- he actually has the same name as my gary. funny funny. uhm yeah. he’s kate’s boyfriend. we’ve never actually met in person, but we talk a lot online. we started talking over the summer and talk a lot now a days. he’s hella funny and nice and shit. nice guy to have around, you know, to talk to. mhm.
2.19.09- i kind of forgot to change this. we met a while ago, you know in person. other than that, it’s all the same. (:
3.23.09- he’s my go to guy; problematic wise that is. he’s usually knows what to say. good kid, good kid. :D
5.14.09- we rarely talk anymore. eh, whatever.
abby: we met three years ago, we were friends then, and then not so much. we recently just gotten closer again.
11.6.08- me and abby are extremely close now. amazing how things change in a month. (:
3.13.09- i think this thing with her and allie will pull me and abby away from each other. i can’t say i mind all that much. d:
4.14.09- i would mind if allie pulled me away from abby. she’s a good friend. good thing they’re all good now.
5.14.09- no, she’s annoying, and i want to throw bricks at her.
dan: 1.12.09- i don’t have much to say. i don’t know him all that well. but he’s nice. he’s sweet. he’s hella cute(:
1.13.09- i lied. i have much to say about this fine fellow. obviously, we trust each other already. if we didn’t, i don’t think we would know so much about each other. we can joke around with each other and plan stupid days together that will happen sooner or later. we’ve got a lot in common actually. it’s pretty spectacular(:
1.26.09- nothing has really changed between us. we’re just getting closer. (:
we have the nicest conversations i have ever had. he’s so adorable(:
2.24.09- things don’t last long with me. -sigh- i miss him already. /:
3.13.09- we’re nothing. but i think about him a lot. i hate it.
3.31.09- there’s something, but there isn’t. i dunno. maybe it’s just me.
5.14.09- there’s nothing, we’ll speak in person on occasion, but really that’s all. and frankly, i don’t really mind.
henry: 2.16.09- he’s a cool kid. my newest friend. makes me smile. simple as that. (:
3.10.09- so maybe things aren’t as simple as that. "he makes me smile." that should be a big enough hint for you. i feared this would happen. d:
3.31.09- nah nah, i don’t like him. he’s a good friend, and he’s a hella adorable kid, but no. thankfully, i don’t like him anymore than a friend(:
5.14.09- me and henry never went to the park, and we don’t speak on the computer often anymore. but we are still friends, and we say hi in school, and we mess with each other in school, and stuff. he’s a cool kid. i just wish we were an ounce closer.
shawn; my kiddo: 5.14.09- well, obviously my kiddo. year younger than me, we tell people we’re cousins all the time, and they believe us. :D

the people who aren’t in the blog anymore.
unless you plan on reading old posts, these people aren’t even worth knowing. they’ve either been mentioned a long time ago, or only like once.
they don’t mean anything in this blog anymore. [5.14.09]
tom: abby’s boyfriend. we’re friends but i wouldn’t say we’re extremely close. he’s a cool kid though.
3.10.09- he can be cool, but for the most part, he’s too… annoying? he’s obsessed with abby, makes fun of everyone. i dunno. sometimes i can’t stand him at all.
3.13.09- nah i lied. he’s not cool at all. he’s actually really fucking annoying and rude, and he pisses me off. i don’t know what abby sees in him.
4.11.09- i was being a jerk before. he’s an alright kid, who can get annoying quite fast. he is rude, but he’s tolerable. you know?
nick: we met last year. and i fell in "love" with him. or what i thought was love. we’re friends. and he’s amazing. [he's the guy who gives amazing hugs]
3.10.09- i love that now i really know him because i’m not obsessed with him. this ended a very very long time ago, before the blog, but you know. i kind of thought i did love him. i’m so naive. it wasn’t love. he’s a cool kid though. nothing like he seemed last year, cool, confident, all that crap. nah, he’s just one of the gals. :D
3.23.09- oh he’s just an ass. he pisses me off quite often.
nina: the stupid bitch who’s in half of my classes. no one can stand her. she’s annoying and she copies everything everything does.
10.25.08- she’s getting better. i can stand her and am actually considering her a friend. not a close one. but, hey. she’s not that bad.
12.9.08- alright. me and nina, hella close now. well not hella close. but close enough to tell each other things and talk too much. i’ve learned to deal with her when she gets annoying, but for the most part she’s not. we laugh too much when we’re talking. it’s great. :D
gorgeous guy: this guy who’s older then i am. he’s good looking, but we’ve never talked. you can read about that. i don’t think he’ll be mentioned much anymore.
3.10.09- he’s not mentioned at all. and i see him now, and i notice, he’s not even that great looking. actually, he isn’t at all. he’s got nice hair, but who cares about that. he’s important to know if you read the old old posts. but if you stay in the current date, just don’t even bother.
ben: this guy i met two years ago [two school years.] i was obsessed with him then cause i was a freak [i'm no longer like that] and now we’re friends.
1.23.09- okay i lied. not really friends. just people who know each other but never talk. but he’s friends with friends of mine. (:
tyler: the best guy i have ever met. he’s definitely my best guy friend. even if i haven’t seen or heard from him in a very long time [not counting when we talked online the other night]. i miss him like crazy. i can definitely say i love him. <3
11.12.08- alright. not much has changed. we talk everyday now. he loves me. but the feeling isn’t returned to him. i feel bad about that. i can say i love him still, but more like a brother then a lover. (:
3.10.09- we don’t even talk anymore. ):
jason: he is the most annoying kid i’ve ever met. he’s obnoxious and loud and intruding. i do not like him at all. which does not make me a bad person. if you met him, you wouldn’t like him either.
12.9.08- he’s still annoying as hell, but i’m happy to say i’m sure he thinks i don’t like him. at all. and he has learned not to like me. moved on i guess. thankfully. which makes him less annoying, but not less annoying to the point of being a friend. d:
2.19.09- bahahahaha, he wrote me a song, and it made me not like him even more than i did before. :D
angie: 1.1.09- so i said i’d add her. but i slightly forgot. we’ve been friends for a while now. few years. three? yeah, something like that. well, this will be four wouldn’t it? hm. anyway, that’s all(:
benn: [take note of the two n's.] 1.26.09- he’s greg’s cousin. he works at target. i like to visit him when i’m in the mall. he’s a cool guy. :D
paul: 1.26.09- another one of target’s finest. he’s gorgeous. not gonna lie. haha. i like to visit him too when i’m at target. we have some pretty lame conversations, but we’re getting somewhere. haha. :D
conner: i tell him to much. i really shouldn’t. he can be annoying. he can be to nice.
he’s a good friend though.
11.12.08- he bugs the crap out of me. i don’t tell him anything anymore, and wish i can take back everything i have told him. he’s not a great friend. he’s annoying.
12.9.08- alright, so he doesn’t bug the crap out of me. he’s gotten betterish with that. he’s stopped bugging me and reading over my shoulder. so, i don’t have anything to say.
2.19.09- the only friend i have in study hall. we talk, and i do tell him too much, but i leave out some things.
3.23.09- he’s so fucking annoying. i’m pretty sick of him.
3.31.09- i’m very sick of him.
mr t.: my guidance counselor. haha. he doesn’t play a big roll in the blog, or my life. i mean, i go and visit all the time. :D
uhm, i did put him under important though because i do feel that i will be mentioning him often. i dunno, just a thought.
3.13.09- i had to move him. i think after the whole thing yesterday, that’ll end his importance in my life. he helped, but only with telling me that a lot of people go through this, and all the facts and shit. that’s not what i need. i need a friend i can talk to, not just nod too.
3.31.09- his now often offers to talk to me, are pissing me off. if he wanted to help, he would just leave me alone.
allie: we met two years ago and are still amazingly good friends. i trust her with my life. i tell her everything. she is my other half.
3.10.09- alright, so i don’t trust her with my life, but i love her(:
she’s my bestie. :D
3.23.09- i wouldn’t call her my bestie. we’re great friends and all, but it’s just not the same as it use to be. you know?
3.31.09- nah nah, she’s my bestie. it’s still the same. i’m just stupid.
6.2.09- she won’t be in here anymore, for too many reasons. we’re not friends anymore, and i’m done thinking about her all together.
anthony: 4.14.09- he’s my newest friend. simple as that.
5.1.09- the guy who makes me happier in a few minutes than most people can in a few hours. the guy i would like to be with for awhile. the guy i can trust with pretty much everything. the guy i know who cares, who will be there with me when i need him.
he means so much to me already, and i like that.
5.16.09- the guy who still holds a place in my heart. and probably will for a while. he’s perfect. and i wish he knew how sorry i was for messing things up. because i wanted nothing more, than to be with him.
and i lost it;lost him.
lucky, we’re still friends.
6.2.09- friends my ass. fuck him.

there will be more.
but i’ll notify you when it’s updated.
sound good?
greatt.
-your informing monster.