ithoughtihaditallpulledtogether.guessiwaswrong.

Tuesday, 05.19.09 in Uncategorized
Tags: crying, endings, guys., him, monster, movingon, pathetic, relationships

thetearsweregone,andiwassmiling. iwasthinkingmaybethingswouldworkout,butnowiknowtheywon’t. there’snohopeofusgettingbacktogether, he’sovermeand"looking"already. lookingforsomeonenew,totakemyplace. youdon’tknowhowupsetitmakesme. itwasonlyatwoweekrelationship. butiwantedittobesomuchmore. butiwentandruinedit,andnowi’mleftheartbrokenandintearsatleastonceaday. it’sahorriblefeeling,andmakesmeneverwanttodateanyoneeveragain. [...]

rip; april twenty eighth- may sixteenth.

Sunday, 05.17.09 in Uncategorized
Tags: ):, crying, ending, guys., relationships, sad, stupid, tears

now that the tears are gone, and only come for a few seconds every few minutes, i am ready to totally vent, and totally tell you how much that kid meant to me.
we met [...]

you’ve got my head spinning, i don’t know where to go from here.

Saturday, 05.16.09 in Uncategorized
Tags: crying, downhill, guys., lifehouse, monster, relationships, tears, wednesday, you and me

’cause it’s you and me, and all other people, with nothing to do. nothing to prove. and it’s you and me and all other people. and i don’t know, i keep my eyes off of you. there’s something about you now, i can’t quite figure out. [...]

why haven’t i listened to this song in what seems like forever?

Friday, 04.17.09 in Uncategorized
Tags: (:, adorable, climbing, crying, eyes!, fried green tomatoes, friends., guys., haha., jack's mannequin, konstantine, meeting, mom, monster, music., pretty, school, something corporate

i miss it, i miss listening to konstantine at least once a day. so last night, while telling anthony to listen to something corporate and jack’s mannequin [something i rarely do with others because i like to keep my music to myself. selfish, and stupid, i know.] he couldn’t find [...]

you’re my beloved, you just don’t know it yet.

Monday, 03.30.09 in Uncategorized
Tags: caring, crushes, crying, dreams., friends., guys., high, monster, secret oath, the spill canvas, thinking

tonight i made a secret oath, to keep chasing after you. and i am not going to stop, whether you like it or not.
we’re murdering our lives, trying to make it work. but you and i both know that we are a lost cause, and nothing more than specks on this earth.
secret oath -the spill [...]

how do you feel when everything you’ve known gets thrown aside?

Friday, 03.27.09 in Uncategorized
Tags: ):, birthday, complaining, crying, depression, feelings, fifteen, friends., guys., lonely, missing, movies, parks, plans, pretty, sad, school, so much, terrible., the spill canvas, upset

never fear, my dear, ’cause we have nothing left to hide .
oh i adore the way you carry yourself , with the grace of a thousand angels overhead. i love the way the galaxy starts to melt.
so much -the spill canvas.
i had everything planned out.
i’d come home, go to the park with henry,
chill there for awhile
and then [...]

guess it’s that time again.

Friday, 03.13.09 in Uncategorized
Tags: :D, crying, girlfriends, giving up, guys., moving on, myspace, shit

yup. time to move on, get over henry.
but why?
oh, you know,
he’s got a girlfriend now.
D:
yup, it hit me like a sack of rocks for some reason.
i don’t know what to do.
he didn’t even tell me.
i found out,
on a myspace bulletin.
this is riduculous.
i have way to much hope with somethings,
and this was one of them.
why did [...]

and i’ve got scars that i’m willing to show you, and you had heart that i’ll never see.

Friday, 02.27.09 in Uncategorized
Tags: ):, caldecott tunnel, crying, donuts, douchebags, fat, hate, monster, parents, people, something corporate, sticks and stones, words

she had answers to all the wrong questions,  it’s funny these answers are all that i need.
carry me, carry me softly, let her down easy so she doesn’t know. carry me, carry me waiting,  let her down easy so she can let go.
caldecott tunnel -something corporate.

sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me.
who [...]

why am i crying?

Saturday, 01.10.09 in Uncategorized
Tags: crying, monster

i sure don’t know.
maybe you can tell me.
-your monster.

freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose.

Wednesday, 12.24.08 in Uncategorized
Tags: ):, :D, conversation, conversing, crying, cutting, details, explaining, fret, friends., fuck, fucking up, game, guys., janis joplin, leaving, low self esteem, me and bobby mcgee, nerd., parents, problem, rubberbands, scream, shit, shitty, whoops, |:

nothing don’t mean nothing honey if it ain’t free, now now. and feeling good was easy, lord, when he sang the blues. you know feeling good was good enough for me. good enough for me and my bobby mcgee.
from the kentucky coal mines to the california sun, hey, bobby shared the secrets of my soul. [...]