Posts Tagged ‘relationships’

For the first time in so long,
I’m actually pretty happy.
I can think about Anthony without nearly crying,
and I can talk about him without getting emotional.
And I’ve been talking about him a lot lately.
Six months, and the relationship is finally closed to me.
Talking about it makes it better though.
Makes it seem real.
It happened.
I miss him tons,
but [...]

seriously,
it hurts so much.
well than, go lay down.
never!
i really don’t have much to say.
there was an amazing storm today.
i loving getting hit by a storm while in the car.
it’s wonderful.
mother and i had a conversation about anthony today.
it made me realize how much i fucked up,
and how much i regret it.
think about it, i could [...]

thetearsweregone,andiwassmiling. iwasthinkingmaybethingswouldworkout,butnowiknowtheywon’t. there’snohopeofusgettingbacktogether, he’sovermeand"looking"already. lookingforsomeonenew,totakemyplace. youdon’tknowhowupsetitmakesme. itwasonlyatwoweekrelationship. butiwantedittobesomuchmore. butiwentandruinedit,andnowi’mleftheartbrokenandintearsatleastonceaday. it’sahorriblefeeling,andmakesmeneverwanttodateanyoneeveragain. [...]

now that the tears are gone, and only come for a few seconds every few minutes, i am ready to totally vent, and totally tell you how much that kid meant to me.
we met [...]

’cause it’s you and me, and all other people, with nothing to do. nothing to prove. and it’s you and me and all other people. and i don’t know, i keep my eyes off of you. there’s something about you now, i can’t quite figure out. [...]

i stayed home today. wish i haven’t. it’s 11:55 am, and i should be in social studies. i should have been walked there by anthony, and given a kiss goodbye before [...]

oh man. i had them all thought out, all organized in my head. i had something to say, and while messing with my hair straightener, lost all of them. [...]

i’ve been reduced to promises. i lie to myself ’cause i do it best. i’m not honest with my intentions. her eyes say yes, but the restraining order says no. –hit the lights.
ugh, today was great. but i don’t want [...]

lyrical lies –cute is what we aim for.
i’m happy to say, this post is going straight from windows live writer to wordpress, and windows live won’t get this one.
but anyway, yesterday i went out to town with anthony, jay, and jay’s sister again. [...]

today i stepped on roadkill. and that wasn’t the best part of my day. because well, that wasn’t really great at all, but it was funny enough to be great. chilled with [...]